Just another Saturday. 11.26.05

Well, Thanksgiving went well. It was a relatively quiet day at my older sisters' and great to visit with the family. My oldest sister and her family did not come as everyone was sick with the flu. Did a little holiday shopping this weekend, but just a little. I lack motivation.

I hate to keep going back to the war, but it's a part of my life now with my nephew over there. Two more soldiers from his Unit died on Thanksgiving. One for sure from his Company, not sure about the other. How do these soldiers manage to get through their days in such a hell hole? I dreamt about JC again last night. It's always disturbing, though I am almost feeling a bit numb to the news I hear from Iraq now. Maybe my mind re-programmed itself so as to keep me positive for JC and for my family. Sometimes I find it difficult to be the strong, level-headed one; today I feel emotionally healthy and I hope that feeling persists.

On a whole different subject....... I have recently decided to try on-line dating. You know, those cheesy services: Match.com, eHarmony. I am lacking in my life and desire a relationship. I need that closeness -- both emotionally and physically. Just not sure this is the way to find it. I have already received a couple of inappropriate messages from some of the seedier members. I'm aware enough that I don't take this whole thing too seriously, so if nothing else, I will keep myself entertained for a month or so.

Nothing is challenging my mind today. Is that a good thing? Yeh, I think so. Just what I needed of late.