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breakOut

Sometimes the feelings that come from deep in our souls need to be released and allowed to breathe. It's just that time for me. Since I turned 50 last July -- which didn't bother me a bit by the way -- I feel more free -- internally. I focus more on the fact that life is really my one chance to do things right -- or what I think is right for me. So this will be my forum. My opportunity to anonymously express my thoughts and feelings about life, love and my never ending pursuit of happiness.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Life's been busy. 12.18.2005

Well, Christmas preparations have pretty much been my life lately (with a little on-line matchmaking thrown in). I think I finished my gift shopping today, and I addressed my Christmas cards. However, I ran out of cards and will have to pick up a few more tomorrow. I love getting together with friends and family for the holidays, but the preparation wears me out. Actually, I feel better about the hustle and bustle this year than I have in a long while. My head must be in a pretty good place right now. My attitude really adjusted in the past year or so. I love it.

The on-line dating has been interesting. I am communicating with two men. Doug is pretty laid back, works for an auto company, and is very easy on the eyes. He doesn't come off as terribly intelligent, though, which bothers me. The good looks are a great start, but I really want someone who can hold their own in good conversation. I am trying not to judge too early (well, I AM trying), so I will plan to see how it goes with him.

James is a little on the opposite end of the spectrum. He's not quite as attractive, but comes off as more of an intellectual. Maybe too much in that direction (I am sooo picky). I also would like to take more time and see how it goes with James.

I also started communication with Ron on eHarmony. We went through the first three stages of communication, but it's his turn to contact me and he hasn't done so -- it's been a week. I liked him -- he had great answers as well as great questions. If I like, the eHarmony service will send him a note and ask him to communicate one way or another, but they say I will have to wait another week. Ho hum.

And then there's TI. He's home recuperating from some type of surgery. I sent him an email about a week and a half ago to see how he was doing. He sent a short reply -- said he was fine and would be back on his feet soon. TI also said he would write as soon as he could. Yeh, right. I have become very disheartened with this whole TI thing. Ball's in his court. I can't make myself crazy over him any longer. My current thought is that I'm an ass for even trying any more. By letting me go he's losing out on a friendship with a warm person who really gives a shit about him. Damn.

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