Restless night...3.18.06

Well, I'm feeling a bit restless tonight - or something. Read a little, tried to watch tv (which usually puts me to sleep), and now I'm back on the computer. I spent most of the day here working. Maybe that's why I feel this way. Should've gotten out a little today and burned up some energy.

Well, good news. Al called last Monday. We talked for three hours! What a nice guy. We hit it off right away, and in fact, I felt like I was catching up with an old friend. I wish we didn't have 100 miles between us. Ugh. Not that he mentioned anything about us meeting, but that's how it's been with Al. He's not in any hurry - said he looks for someone who is willing to take the time for a relationship to develop. That's really okay with me. I'm willing to continue as we have been for a little longer as I think we may be a good match. I'll just continue to enjoy the cyber and telephone conversations with him. I think he may be worth it ;).

News from Iraq: JC's Company was involved in "Operation Swarmer" the last couple of days. The most unfortunate thing is there was one casualty who happened to be from his Company. The name of the soldier has not been released as of yet pending notification of family. I'm a little concerned about it being one of the soldier's on JC's "team" that I've been writing to. I'll check the net again in the morning for the name. On a better note, JC should be home in the next couple of days for some R & R. Now, I know the military has a way of changing plans at the drop of a hat. In fact, JC should have been home two weeks ago and was postponed then, but I'm cautiously optimistic this time. In just two more weeks it will be six months that JC has been in that hell hole. It's time for a break.

Okay. Now I'm tired. Off to bed as tomorrow's another day...

It's been awhile... 3.12.06

Wow, I can't believe it's been so long since I've been back. I guess I've been busy. Winter is a busy time of year for me - I have a home-based graphics design business in addition to my regular day job. My current project is a 64 page school yearbook; it offers great opportunity for me to be creative and the money's not bad either, so I trudge on.

Besides work I've been spending a little time online - the dating thing. I met a gentleman from my area yesterday for lunch. Very nice man, very attractive, but no sparks. For one thing, he is ultra conservative and I lean in the other direction. He is a big outdoorsman - hunting, fishing, tournaments with his two boys - ages 17 and 19. That's great. I actually love to fish and spend time on the water. But I'm not sure exactly how this man will find time to fit a woman in his life. I almost think he is thinking more about his future when the boys are living away from home than in the present. So....... my search continues. Actually, there is another man I am really interested in. Al lives about 100 miles away which brings in lots of long distance issues, but I really feel it with him just through e-communication. And of course it doesn't hurt that he's hot (at least in the photo he posted). He has admitted to being a little shy, and I've had to be a bit pushy which totally isn't my style as I also am a bit shy. But I offered him my phone number a couple weeks ago and finally heard back from him this past week. He asked when a good time would be for him to call me. Wooo hoooo! Progress! I hope to hear from him soon!

I hear from JC often. Things seem to have heated up a bit in Iraq, so his leave was postponed. He was originally scheduled for some R & R the first of March, but now he doesn't know when he will be able to get away for a break. In spite of it all, it sounds as though his spirits are up. I can tell by his letters that he is a changed young man. He went into this deployment feeling scared and unsure of himself. Through his experiences he appears to be very confident and motivated. He does speak a bit about the horrors he's seen and the images in his head that won't seem to go away. I hope he is strong enough to overcome and move forward when this nightmare is over for him.

By the way, regarding men in my life.... TI is completely out of the picture now. He appeared so disinterested in anything I had to say that I just stopped emailing him. He hasn't made any attempt to contact me either, so I guess I need to finally take the hint that it's time to let that dream go. He may be out of my life, but I can honestly say that whatever happens in my life, he will always be in my heart.