lunar phasesipt"> var ccm_cfg breakOut: April 2006

breakOut

Sometimes the feelings that come from deep in our souls need to be released and allowed to breathe. It's just that time for me. Since I turned 50 last July -- which didn't bother me a bit by the way -- I feel more free -- internally. I focus more on the fact that life is really my one chance to do things right -- or what I think is right for me. So this will be my forum. My opportunity to anonymously express my thoughts and feelings about life, love and my never ending pursuit of happiness.

Saturday, April 15, 2006

I love spring!....4.15.06

What a gorgeous day! It seems as though winter was ages ago - yeh, well this is Michigan, it'll probably snow tomorrow. Nope, not gonna ruin my mood. Between the beautiful weather and the inspiring full moon the other night, life is good.

JC was home for 17 days! Just went back to Iraq last Tuesday. It was so great to see him! He looks good - a little thinner, but good. We had some time to talk and he truly is dealing with some messed up images in his head that seem to linger along with nightmares and the shakes. I sure hope the military takes care of the soldiers upon their return from that hellhole. JC relayed a couple of war stories, but nothing too intense. I told him I didn't want to hear too much as he still has six months of his tour to complete. He left a list of things he and the other soldiers could use: Visine, baby wipes, toothpaste, toothbrushes, snacks. Koolaid makes their product in single servings now which works well for the soldiers. They just add a packet to their water bottle for a little flavor. If you are sending packages to soldiers, just be aware that the koolaid packets tend to open in the soldiers' rucks or pockets, so send along baggies as well.

In the love department, I heard from Al the other day. Well, I had sent him an email and invited him to a concert coming up in May. Turns out that it falls on a weekend that he has his 6 year-old. The good news is that Al said he will check with the ex about switching weekends. Very cool. I'm trying not to get my hopes up, though, as he said the ex tends to plan her calendar in advance which makes changes difficult sometimes. But, you never know. I could get lucky (in more ways than one) hah!

Heard from TI yesterday. Just a short email to say happy Easter. Though I was doing so well dealing with what I thought was going to be the end of communication between us. I suppose I just need to get used to the fact that all we will ever have is the "e-pal" thing - if indeed the emailing continues. I think it's okay. I'm good with it.